My wife started to complain that living with me was like living with a bear with a sore head, I would snap at her and my family without reason and spent hours awake at night mulling over the circumstances of the abuse and its consequences, I found myself typing notes to try to assist me with sleeping. I decided I had waited long enough for the psychiatric care I had been offered.

I wrote to Liz Dux again to advise her that I had not heard from Claire with an appointment for the psychiatric care package she had offered. I reminded Liz she had written to them to remind them of this, some five months after the meeting, with no reply.

Liz replied that she had obtained a response from the Speaking Out team, they had stated that if I required psychiatric care, I should go to my GP. Caring as always.

I wrote in confidence to my GP giving the bare bones of the story and asking for help. He met with me after surgery hours one evening and I told him the whole story.

He arranged for a fact-finding meeting with the psychiatric care team in my area.

A few weeks later I attended a meeting, and it was determined I would benefit most from psychoanalytic psychiatric care, a service not normally available on the NHS. However, my GP pushed for this and I duly receive my first meeting almost three years after the speaking out meeting.

Shortly after this I received a curt letter from Liz Dux simply stating that my claim had been rejected by the NHS/DOH and that there was nothing further they could do for me. That they were dropping me as a client with immediate effect. The letter advised that if I disagreed with the outcome, I should take the DOH to court. However, this would be expensive, public and in their opinion would likely fail.

I was understandably annoyed, I recalled when the inquiry was published, Kate Lampard was visibly distressed at the findings which detailed numerous occasions when Savile had abused dead bodies, and that he had been granted unconditional access to two morgues, one of which was in the Leeds General Infirmary.

In addition, Jeremy Hunt the health secretary had stood in the house of commons and said that for too long the victims of Savile had not been believed, and “the victims must be believed”.

I collated my notes written at night along with sections of my statement and other documents and wrote a twelve-page letter to the Health Secretary, Jeremy Hunt MP.

My letter detailed the encounters with Savile, the reasons I had not come forward for over forty years, the way in which I had been treated by the police, solicitors, speaking out inquiry team, DOH solicitors, the breaches of confidentiality and the lack of professional care.

I advised him that I had not been believed by the Speaking Out inquiry team despite my claims of assault in Savile’s car being supported by other witness testimony included in the inquiry report.

That the final inquiry had detailed twelve incidents in which Savile had been witnessed acting inappropriately with patients who had died, not following hospital procedures.

That at the time I wrote my full account for Liz Dux and the Met police, October 2012, the fact that Savile had unrestricted access to the morgue at Leeds General Infirmary and had abused his position as volunteer porter to handle cadavers, was not in the public domain, hence this part of my statement could not have been invented. 

I reminded him of his speech in the house and asked him to personally investigate the handling of my case by the inquiry team.

I also wrote to Liz Dux, I berated her for the way my case had been handled and her lack of care.

I requested copies of all documents she held on file in my name.

Her reply was astonishing, she defended her actions despite these being indefensible, she even tried to say that the outcome of the speaking Out meeting was entirely my fault, and that I had not needed to attend the meeting in the first place.

However, she did supply me with around eight documents from her file, my statement to her colleague, my redacted statement to the police, her letter to Claire Jones asking her to chase up my psychiatric support, my original notes from the police interview and subsequent statement, a letter from the DOH solicitors requesting my sister’s medical records etc.

Also, the letter from the DOH legal department rejecting my claim, signed by the Health Minister, Jeremy Hunt MP.

I now realised I had wasted my time writing to Jeremy Hunt, and took a multiple route strategy to hopefully get someone to listen and possibly correct the injustice of the DOH legal team’s decision. To deny my victim status without having met me.

I filed a complaint with the DOH citing that my statement described assaults which fit exactly Savile’s MO. That the inquiry team statement, that I could not have witnessed Savile with a dead body due to procedures in place in hospitals, was risible as it relied upon Savile following the hospital’s procedures, which he clearly did not, and that the fact Savile had access to the morgue and cadavers were not in the public domain at the time of my statement.

I received a reply from the DOH in under a week, it advised me that there was no right of appeal against the decision taken, that the only way I could challenge the decision would be to take the DOH to court, and warned me that this would be public, costly and there would be no guarantee of success hence I should seek legal advice.

I also wrote to the DOH solicitors requesting an interview, in which I wished them to explain why my case had been rejected without meeting with me. They wrote back to say that they would not be prepared to meet me.