I had now completed forty-four meetings with the psychiatrist over the course of a year, sceptical at first, I was simply asked to talk for around fifty minutes about what had happened whist she listened. I did not take it seriously for several weeks, however by around seven weeks I ran out of story to tell, I was now spending time for several days before a meeting thinking of what to say in the next meeting.

Finally, the psychiatrist explained that we had reached a point she hoped we would, I was no longer thinking about the past, no longer writing notes in the middle of the night, and no longer losing so much sleep, she explained that she expected my treatment to take around forty-five meetings over a period of a year, and for the focus to reach a point where the only time I thought about the past horror stories, would be during the meetings with her.

She was right, the sleepless nights were getting to be a thing of the past, the thoughts now started to look to the future and my wife said I was a lot easier to live with.

After the completion of the meetings, I never now think about the past and how I could have changed the outcome with some action, or omission. I can recommend the course to anyone in my position, however as it is not normally available on the NHS, you may need to fight for a place.